What’s the Point of Even Trying

New song; new video:

I wrote this song in the spring and summer of 2013. Apologies to all who have been quoted saying something along the lines of “If I knew I’d live this long, I would have taken better care of myself” (Mickey Mantle, Eubie Blake, George Burns, Mark Twain, and others). I also made use of an explanation given by Edvard Munch concerning his most famous painting: “I was walking along the road with two friends — the sun was setting — suddenly the sky turned blood red — I paused, feeling exhausted, and leaned on the fence — there was blood and tongues of fire above the blue-black fjord and the city — my friends walked on, and I stood there trembling with anxiety — and I sensed an infinite scream passing through nature.”

See production notes, lyrics, and embedded video. Remixed Sept. 2, 2019.

All vocals sung and all instruments played by J. Ochshorn
Arranged and recorded at home by J. Ochshorn using Logic Pro
Video shot with my old low-resolution Flip camcorder and created with Final Cut Express
Lyrics and music © 2013 Jonathan Ochshorn:

VERSE 1: what have i swallowed
what have i confessed
an act that can’t be followed
a fact i can’t digest
i ate it all, drank it down, kept it up with the best

VERSE 1 (second part): the morning after
got some coffee and some cream
mixed it with some laughter
like a madman in a mindless dream
the sky turns red, nature wakes with a scream

CHORUS 1: if i knew i’d live this long
i wouldn’t have wasted all those years
i might have found some younger friends
with more interesting careers
now everyone around me’s dying
everyone i knew before
what’s the point of even trying anymore

VERSE 2: i’ve been alone now
i’ve settled in this groove
i can’t stay in my home now
but i can’t say where i’d move
there’s nothing left, nothing right, and nothing to prove

CHORUS 2: if i knew i’d live this long
i would have taken better care
i would have got more exercise
put some color in my hair
if my life’s not satisfying
if i’m lying at death’s door
what’s the point of even trying anymore

BRIDGE: if i were to think this through
there’s still no way to write an ending
and if i act as if i knew
exactly what i was intending to do

VERSE 3: i’d be misleading
if i claimed there’s a design
based upon my reading
i’m not doing all that fine
just getting up, getting by, waiting here for a sign

CHORUS 3: if i knew i’d live this long
there would be so much more to show
i would have done the things i dreamed
of doing long ago
my regrets are multiplying
i’m becoming such a bore
what’s the point of even trying anymore
what’s the point of even trying anymore

Tallest buildings in the world that are no longer around

Since 2560 BCE, there have been only three buildings that were the tallest buildings in the world that no longer exist. The three are:

(a) Old St Paul’s Cathedral, London, 489 ft, built 1087–1314, destroyed in the Fire of London, 1666.

(b) Singer Building, 1908–1909, destroyed to make US Steel Bldg in the 1960s

(c) World Trade Center, built in the 1970s, destroyed in Sept. 2001

There are only three buildings since 2560 BCE that were the tallest building in the world but no longer exist: (a) Old St Paul's; (b) the Singer Building; and (c) the World Trade Center.

The claim that every other tallest building in the world still exists is based on the fact that from 2560 BCE until the Lincoln Cathedral was finished in c. 1300, the tallest building in the world was the Great Pyramid of Giza. Since both the pyramid and the Lincoln Cathedral still exist, Old St Paul’s must be the first tallest building in the world to be destroyed. Since then, there have only been two others.

That is amazing.

Sources:
Wikipedia: tallest buildings in the world and Great Pyramid of Giza

Milstein Hall code violations: formal appeal

After getting no response for over a year from the NYS Division of Code Enforcement and Administration (DCEA) concerning a complaint that I filed about building code violations in Milstein-Sibley-Rand Halls, I was advised by DCEA officials to file a formal appeal with the regional office of the State DCEA. I submitted this appeal on May 28, 2013.

A summary of these code violations (taken from the appeal document), as well as the appeal document itself, can be found here.

Site Plan showing Milstein-Sibley-Rand Hall (plan by Jonathan Ochshorn based on schematic site plan available on Cornell's Milstein Hall web site superimposed on a Google Map showing the Cornell campus).

“…no one should uncover or sit in the trustee seats for any reason.”

Just received this bizarre email notice from Cornell administrators:

For the rest of the semester and until after commencement the Milstein Auditorium will have two rows of the trustee seats up out of the floor. There are 138 seats in the sloped section. If anyone needs more seats we can add up to 40 more in front of the 2 trustee rows. Please note that no one should uncover or sit in the trustee seats for any reason.

Such a crass and obvious expression of our class society — the  surprising thing about it is not that the “trustees” are treated like royalty, but that the Cornell administrators who created this exclusive seating arrangement are apparently oblivious to its meaning.

Fortune…

When living in Hong Kong in 1997-1998, I discovered that Chinese fortune cookies do not exist in China, but rather are an American innovation. In my early days eating American Chinese food, I got used to the idea that the fortune cookies supplied with the check at the end of the meal actually did contain a fortune — that is, a prediction of what would happen to you sometime in the future.

from: https://www.barstoolsports.com

These fortunes always had a positive, or optimistic, character, since it would clearly be counter-productive for a restaurant to deliberately give its customers bad news.

At some point, however, the fortunes in fortune cookies seemed to change their character; in fact, they were no longer fortunes at all, but merely trite pronouncements about life.

from: https://hangwithbigpictureframing.com

Not having an actual fortune in a fortune cookie was discouraging to me, since there are already enough trite pronouncements about life available through mass media and news programming; it seemed hardly necessary to work my way through the plastic packaging of the cookie, and crack open the hard shell of cookie material, in order to get yet another annoying message about love, life, and work.

Yet I continued to pry open these strange clams of brittle dough, perhaps hoping that an actual fortune would emerge — something I could ridicule freely and with pleasure. Imagine my surprise, then, when I recently opened a fortune cookie at Ling Ling Garden restaurant in Ithaca, NY, and received neither an optimistic message about my future nor a facile observation about life, but a shocking rebuke and warning: “Your problem just got bigger. Think, what have you done.”

from Ling Ling Garden, Ithaca, NY

I was literally stunned. Was there a rogue employee somewhere in the fortune cookie production line planting dystopic messages in these cookies? And if so, why? And was this message/warning unique, or were there others like it? My mind raced feverishly thinking of the possibilities: “The man behind you has a gun. Your life is in danger.” “Hundreds of large rats have entered your home. Extermination is impossible.” “Your computer just crashed, and none of your important work was backed up. You will lose your job.”

In the end, we paid the bill and left the restaurant. I haven’t dared return.

Dorner on architecture

For architects, one of the more interesting aspects of Christopher Dorner’s “Manifesto” is his critique of the new LAPD headquarters building. Conventional accounts of the building claim that glass (i.e., transparency) in this context somehow corresponds to, or symbolizes, “openness” and “democracy”:

“In doing so, the LAPD hasn’t sought to simply upgrade facilities. It’s set out to build stations that embody its hopes for a new relationship with local communities — one of transparency and cooperation.” The Future of Los Angeles’ Police Stations: Is the LAPD misplacing something important in the process of building the next generation of police stations?

 

“In designing the replacement for their aging and unsafe headquarters, the main goal of the LAPD was to make manifest their desire for increased transparency while at the same time maintain a secure and safe environment for the building’s users and visitors… A goal for the project and design process was to strike a balance between the LAPD’s desire for openness and transparency while preserving operational security that the department required.” LAPD Police Administration Building

Such critiques can be best understood as instances of what Princeton philosopher Harry G. Frankfurt calls bullshit: Frankfurt suggests “that although bullshit can take many innocent forms, excessive indulgence in it can eventually undermine the practitioner’s capacity to tell the truth in a way that lying does not. Liars at least acknowledge that it matters what is true. By virtue of this, Frankfurt writes, bullshit is a greater enemy of the truth than lies are.”

Eric Jarosinski, in his Architectural Symbolism and the Rhetoric of Transparency — A Berlin Ghost Story [PDF], describes the history of this phenomenon — the equation of a building’s literal “transparency” with various cultural outcomes — in some detail: “The current discourse’s equation of glass with democracy and the future borrows from a tradition in pre-world war and Weimar-era architecture most closely associated with the designers Paul Scheerbart and Bruno Taut. As poet and architect, Scheerbart theorized a revolutionarily transformative ‘glass culture’ that would produce a new transparent landscape and a newly enlightened civilization.”

Here is what Dorner says in his Manifesto: “People who live in glass houses should not throw stones. How ironic that you [the LAPD] utilize a fixed glass structure as your command HQ. You use as a luminous building to symbolize that you are transparent, have nothing to hide, or suppress when in essence, concealing, omitting, and obscuring is your forte.”

Milstein Hall winter issues

[Updated below 1/4/13] Milstein Hall (Cornell University; designed by Rem Koolhaas/OMA) has many problems, which I have discussed elsewhere. Several additional issues emerge in Ithaca’s winter weather. One, in particular, was so puzzling to me that I wrote an email to Milstein Hall’s Project Manager back in July, 2011:

From: Jonathan Ochshorn
Sent: Thursday, July 07, 2011 5:02 PM
To: xxxx
Subject: Milstein bollards

xxxx,

As you must know by now, I find many aspects of Milstein Hall puzzling. In this category, I feel compelled to mention my concerns about what appear to be steel bollards fastened to the structural concrete deck just to the west of the main Milstein Hall superstructure. I haven’t seen the working drawings for these items, so my comments may well be misinformed (I’ll take that risk).

The bollard detail seems puzzling to me on two accounts. First, the bollards seem to interrupt the rigid insulation now being placed over the concrete deck, providing a series of uninsulated pathways — thermal bridges — over the heated space below. This isn’t necessarily an energy issue, but could be a condensation issue: if humid interior air comes in contact with the colder concrete surfaces immediately below these bollards, water could condense on those surfaces, creating all sorts of problems during cold winter months.

Second, bollards are always hit by vehicles; one can observe this all over campus. By fastening the bollards to the structural deck (thereby interrupting not only the thermal protection layer but also the water, air, and vapor protection layers), it seems to me that all sorts of unnecessary problems may well occur in the future if and when a bollard is damaged by being hit. At worst, the hit could dislodge the various control layers, resulting in leaks; but even if the control layers remain intact, repairing the bollard would require an incredible amount of work, digging down beneath the upper slab, removing insulation, and then repairing all the various membranes.

It seems to me that all of these potential problems could be resolved simply by fastening the bollards to the upper slab, and allowing the insulation and various membranes to be continuous under the slab. There are also many “flexible” bollards made that accept the reality of being hit, without being destroyed or damaged.

Anyway, I hope I’m wrong about all this, and apologize in advance if my comments are, for any reason, not pertinent.

Just today, I noticed that one of the bollards appeared to be damaged in precisely the manner I had anticipated back in 2011; it’s not yet clear what the extent of the damage is, and whether the underlying waterproofing membrane has been damaged below grade.

Damage to Milstein Hall bollard, presumably during snow removal operations. Photo by J. Ochshorn Jan. 4, 2013.

Update (1/4/13): Peter Turner, Assistant Dean for Administration of Cornell’s College of Architecture, Art, and Planning, has informed me that the “damaged” bollard was actually a special removable one “to allow vehicle access.” It was kicked off its concrete base (see his photo reproduced below) but did no apparent damage to underlying waterproofing or insulation, as would be likely if one of the other bollards had been knocked over by a vehicle. Given the clear danger that some other bollard might be hit, it remains puzzling why all the bollards were not designed in a similar manner.

This special removable bollard was knocked off its concrete base, but otherwise caused no apparent damage. Photo by Peter Turner, Jan. 4, 2013.

[End of update]

Speaking of winter damage, there is another major risk factor at play in Milstein Hall due to one of its design features: there is no parapet at the boundary of the vegetated roof area, so that wind-blown snow will sometimes accumulate over the roof edge and present a hazard to pedestrians walking below. Today, the condition (see photo below) was not particularly severe, but the potential for dangerous conditions is clear.

Wind-blown snow creates potentially dangerous conditions at the edge of Milstein Hall. Photo by J. Ochshorn Jan. 4, 2013.

Finally, it is interesting to look at the classic ice dams and icicles that form each year on the Foundry, next to Milstein Hall. This building, while not officially part of the Milstein Hall project (which included some work on adjacent buildings), was renovated in anticipation of the completion of Milstein Hall. The ice dam problem (due to inadequate insulation and roof ventilation) was clearly not addressed.

Ice dams form each year on the Foundry, adjacent to Milstein Hall. Photo by J. Ochshorn Jan. 4, 2013.